Education and Life

After graduating from high school, I was expected to fulfil the role of a traditional housewife and nothing more. Everyone kept telling me that, “getting married and having children are the best things a woman can obtain” and “you would not be able to do anything with your education even if you managed to get any!” I was surrounded by many pessimistic people who saw nothing in me but the biological functions of my body and who worked hard to shape my life according to their own beliefs. I was extremely repressed and fiercely manipluated so that I'd be what the grown ups of my family wanted me to be. Despite my young age and lack of life experience, I knew that I could be more than what they wanted me to be even with their constant manipulation and enforced rules. I knew that education is the means of claiming my true self and obtaining my goals because God has encouraged seeking education and enlightening people’s minds and promised those who teach their fellow human beings the good ways of life with multiple rewards.

Getting married and having children before going to college was almost the end of my dreams. However, my faith, patience, and determination, along with the support of some family members, kept kindling my ambition from time to time till I was blessed to join college and start my professional journey. With determination and hard work, I was able to obtain my BA despite the obstacles and life-changing circumstances that kept haunting me throughout that journey, let alone the negative people (some of them are professional) who doubted my abilities as a potential scholar and knowledge seeker. It was a tough journey with nights full of tears and days full of responsibilities.

Today as I am writing these few lines, I realized that ambition was not the only force that helped me pass from one phase of my education journey to another, but also the resilience and determination that I have been developing throughout my life as well as the desire to be, to help, and to disseminate the love of knowledge from one generation to another. I'm lonely and depressed nowadays because of the dare decisions I took to end the life I didn't choose to live, but I'm also grateful to my God for granting me the chance to do that.