Trusting myself🌼

Assalam u alikum,

My name is Arzoo.I'm a muslim girl.I am born and raised in a muslim house.I cannot say I came from a lower middle class family because I am still living a lower middle class lifestyle.I am a dreamer I wanted to become a doctor,travel the world,try newthings,hobbies,food,meeting new people,live my life to fullest.I want to become someone who can help both myself amd other,but lots of my dreams were broken by my family.my mother died in 2014 when I was in high school.It was her dream for me to become a doctor so I made it my dream.I was extra close to my mother.So her death was a big trauma for me which I don't think I can ever recover from but I know she is with me.My Father was against my physiotherapist degree. But I convinced him some how.I completed my 5 year program along with doing all the home chorus and along with lots of mental abuse that was especially coming from my father and brother but in that I completed my degree in one go by trusting God and by having a full trust in my self.I have completed my degree in 2021 but from 2020 till now it's been 5 years the maximum amount of time my father allowed us to go out each year is hardly 5 times in 365 days.I feel like I'm in open cage. I became so much depressed with all this mental torture and staying in one room 24/7 that by thinking of dying I felt happy. My father and brothers they treats me like I don't even exist.Every time if I go to ask for something like very basic right of mine it turns into fight and insult.And now on top of that my last hope of doing something for my self was crashed by my father by not allowing to do job.But still I never once doubted my self I trust God so much that I know that he will make way for me even if these people throw me in the pit.I do drop shipping and I'm a content creater and soon definitely I will become someone who doesnot have to depend on anyone except God beacuse I trust God's plan and I trust myself that these hurdles will soon be converted into happiness and peace.

Through my story I want to tell everyone that nobody can break you If you trust yourself and don't sacrife yourself and your dreams for the sake of others.Your dreams are what make you and will define you in the future.Start by babysteps but never ever giveup beacause the one who is the searcher of the path will definitely find path one day,you just have to keep going,keep working hard and smart.Rather then arguing with useless people who have not done anything for themselves and want same for you and letting negative people and negative thoughts ruin your life turn it into fuel soon you will become the best version of yourself Insha Allah