BECOMING ME - PAIN TURNED INTO PURPOSE

Being abused is a horrible thing for one to experience. The least one can do is to find a way to live again after being killed in many ways. I am a Social Issues Activist, I advocate for the better world with love , peace , care and support. I advocate for mental health wellness for everyone since the year 2017 and still fighting even in 2025. You know why? I do not wish for anyone on this earth to go through what I went through. I am currently surviving on Antidepressants and Antianxiety pills because my emotions have reached its limit to take in any frustrating issue. It has reached its limit because it has been exhausted, pain kept on accumulating in me like I'm no human deserving to live in peace.

I have been sexually abused my whole childhood , from as young as 7 years old to 14 years old by close family members. With no protection, only got protected by God from not getting pregnant and not getting infected by Sexually Transmited Diseases and Sexually Transmited Infections then. My heart pounds whenever I get to relieve this moment in my mind (Anxiety Attacks, Relapsing). I did not even get an opportunity to embrace my virginity, it was stolen from me. I have been sexually robbed. Many times I wonder why, do most men feel women deserve to be treated this way.

Well I got into dating, I can't even celebrate the history I have in relationships because I don't understand the love I got myself into. I nearly died many times when the so called boyfriends left me for the dead. I was all alone in the hospital bed when I had a nervous breakdown because the guy ended the relationship without even telling me atleast. I began seeing him with a different woman. Mind you this man had put me through a lot in the relationship, I forgave him hoping that he is truly sorry and genuinely willing to build our relationship. This man inserted abortion pills in my genitals without my consent during intimacy. I was expecting, on my first trimester. I fell terribly ill; bleeding, vomiting, diarrhea the whole night. Embarrassed to even go to the hospital yet I am anaemic. I was bleeding the whole month. The man whom I thought loved me, because he said it nearly killed me. I was left alone, I felt so alone.....I new right then, that human love is not assured. Hence I have to consider and normalize loving myself more. I then started a movement called "RELATIONSHIP REMEDY" dubbed "MY LOVE FOR ME SHOULD GET ME ALL THE LOVE I NEED"

I am still wondering if love really exist on earth, men who came to my life left. In most cases I felt iltreated , taken for granted, I keep feeling they mostly just come for sexual pleasure not for love, and building family as they present. Just in 2023, the 3 years relationship that I was in ended. The man decided to avoid me. Totally cutting contact with me yet we had no conflict or misunderstanding. The man who came to my life with intentions of marrying me and building a family with me. A 45 years old man when I met him. I don't know what happened, he abondoned me at the very moment that I needed him the most. Just after the passing of my father. I needed the man I have been living with to support me, unfortunately I was left alone yet again. He stayed for all these years without talking to me. No closure, no nothing. The relationship that I have invested a lot in. My emotions, my body, my finances and resources. The man had children, I assisted him financially with his children. Trust me when I say, I nearly went crazy. I couldn't believe it , not after all these years. Why? I relapsed into depression, had suicidal thoughts. Everything fell apart, financially my business fell apart. I was grieving the loss of my dearest father, the man I loved abondoned me, my business crumbled. I was torn. Self doubt creeped in. I got miserable. But hey, God picked me up.

I know , I am not alone going through this missery, with my movement we provide support across the globe, mostly emotionally through proffesional counselling, seminars, branded merchandise, flyers, posters, media presentations at local television, radios, news papers and social media platforms.

Relationship misseries are rising every second especially in Botswana, there is a lot of murders, suicide of people in relationships, divorces, physical abuse, verbal abuse, emotional abuse. My movement is intending to tackle this matter by teaching people the importance of loving oneself more and making decisions that would not destroy our lives. I believe understanding self-love would be a better lesson to loving the next person because you would never do something to your partner if at all you wouldn't want it to be done to you. More like cheating, neglecting responsibilities...etc. It starts with an individual by understanding the value of love and knowing emotional intelligence. Love is nurtured, it needs honesty, respect, pure intentions.

We pray to God to help us resolve this matter, we should not anymore lose any life just because relationships did not go well. There is life after break-up. We can start affresh. There is life after being abused, don't let yourself die due to a broken spirit. Fight for your healing. I have come this far, a 36 years old woman who been abused many times but I refused to destroyed. I am BECOMING ME with my purpose. In my journey I was mostly helped by God, I am a Christian and all this God is teaching us that he is love. The bible says, "God is love, he who abides in Love, abides in God and God abides in him." Amen🙏🏾

Babedi Samakabadi FACES Reality ❤️

Save A Woman Organization ❤️