Bought my motivation back

In my life I have had a lot of loss. My friends left,my family wanted nothing to do with me due to my relationship choice to love a woman. I found my self helping others just so I could avoid my feelings, I could feel my motivation dwindling daily and my life becoming meaningless day by day death felt like the release I need as pain and quality of life went down hill. I organized my euthanasia to take place at a hospital in Germany. Leading up to preparation to die my partner was found out she was 19 weeks pregnant Harley we named our daughter. I started realizing all I could feel was numb and nothing else. As with each interaction with Harley I could feel a real sense I needed to change. I sourced out the specialist in the key areas my issues where in. Slowly I gained my quality of life back. There is no way to thank someone like this for bringing back your feelings from the dead