From An Inner Hell To Peace

There was a time in my life when I felt ultimate despair; that nothing was working and my life was a mess – I hated it. I had just had two babies and after each birth suffered debilitating Post Natal Depression. In fact after the birth of my second child the depression turned into Post Partum Psychosis. No one knew anything about this in the late 1980’s, in fact I don’t think there was even a name for it. Unfortunately, the man I was married to, the father of our children had no idea how to deal with my mental illness and to cut a long story short,whilst I was at my lowest point, divorced me and was granted custody of our children. I remember laying in my bed just screaming and screaming for my children.

Time is a great healer, so they say. Years passed and I went back and forth to family court to try and get joint custody or at least time allowed to have my children with me. I used to have them stay with me every other weekend and sometimes over the school holidays. Now they are grown up but unfortunately I cannot say there is a happy ending as both of them are estranged from me and have not had any contact since 2008 despite me trying.

The reason why I am telling you just a small part of my story is because I want you to know that despite all of the horror and the pain, I am still here and never once did I contemplate giving up. In fact it has made me a different person and it changed me totally. It gave me a deep desire to help other people going through hell and to see that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I studied and earned certification in Professional Stress Management, I am a Reiki Master, an EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) practitioner and now a Life Transformation Teacher for women. But most of all it's life experience that has equipped me to help others get through their pain and fear.

When my Mum asked me at the age of eight “Claire, what do you want to do when you grow up?” And I replied “Help people”, I never would have guessed that I would have to go through a baptism of fire to be able to do that successfully and with joy!