From Silent Struggles to a Voice Within: My Journey Towards Self-Belief

I come from a humble home where things are neither too difficult nor too easy just "normal," as many would say. I studied at a private college, while my eldest sister went to a government institution. She continued her education and is now in university. She speaks fluent English, earns online, and supports our mother with thoughtful gifts.

She has become the pride of our home.

Whenever there’s something to be ordered, someone to visit the hospital with, or any other important task it’s my sister who gets called. Why? Because she is more educated, more confident, and more "capable" in everyone’s eyes.

My mother often compares me to her sometimes directly, sometimes sarcastically. “Why don’t you learn something from your sister?” she says. “You studied, but did nothing with it.” Those words hurt, deeply. But I know they come from a place of concern and love. She wants me to be strong, independent, and ready to face the world alone.

But I am not like my sister. I am soft-hearted. Words stay with me longer than they should. I cry when people speak harshly. I overthink. I feel deeply.

That’s also my strength and I’m learning to embrace it.

Even though I stopped my education because of our family’s financial situation, I’m now trying to rebuild myself quietly. I’ve started learning video editing from home. I’ve joined World Pulse because I believe this platform can give me a voice the voice I never believed I had.

I don’t feel jealousy towards my sister. I’m proud of her. And I don’t blame my mother either. In fact, her constant words are what woke me up. If she hadn’t pushed me even with tough love I might never have thought of doing anything on my own.

Now, I want to earn by myself. I want to carry my own expenses. I want to stop depending on others. I want to prove to myself that I can and that even a quiet girl like me can be loud in action.

This is not the end of my story. This is the beginning.