Her journey to love

For many generations, you have let your worth to be determined by your beauty. And for years you have even learned how to adorn yourself with chemicals and at times even burned your hair in an attempt to look like barbie. Oh maybe if I can loose more kilos? Just to abit be slim, I will might just like me? oh! no! maybe if the size of my nose was smaller? No! Maybe if I was born in a different race I could just be. The little young girl who lives inside has tried to scream and even shout to you that you should just breathe and live. And suddenly confusion filled your mind when you thought of the thought of maybe just maybe "being". This has been your life! What you known, after all the very first time you discovered to love was when you showed affection to your doll. Plastic?painted with beautiful colors, perfect futures, cheeks glowing with a natural glow and the doll always wore a smile even if you threw her on the floor so hard that both her legs with be separated at times and now you take him back every time he said he was sorry and oh! It was your fault! You made him do after all he does it because he loves you. And you also learned to even over feed your precious doll because of all the boredom and now today you find yourself struggling with your weight because you have learned to eat to entertain yourself and even escape the realities of life.Unrealistic you say to yourself! The world expects ME to be beautiful, strong, happy and even in love with life even when I am sad about loosing my loved ones or even my beautiful vintage blouse? For years you have even learned to make friends with two imaginary mates "fear and disappointment". Always opening up for disappointment, you know let me just be ready in case this friend hurts me or if maybe if this guy decides to leave?You learned to prepare yourself for the worse cases in life. Fear became your invisible vehicle to achieving and pursuing all that which you believed you deserved. Religion, addictions, relationships, materials and none of those knew how to give what you couldn't express but you knew very well that you needed to exist. Now, my Beautiful Princess today I take this time to break some news to you and I am not even afraid to hurt or disappoint you because I know that you already armed yourself with your two friends. The truth is you no longer that little girl who is playing with dolls anymore and of course you have learned to discover that Fairy tales do not really exist and Santa Clause is just your parents buying you exactly what you want because they love you. Today my dear, I will like you to know that you have two new friends who have been long waiting for you.For years they patiently waited and they are "trust and love". To be continued..................