I AM STILL SCARED, BUT I AM DOING IT SCARED ANYWAY.

Hi, I'm a medical technologist by profession, but if you had asked me years ago, I wouldn’t have been able to tell you what that even meant. I like to say this field chose me because when I applied, I had no clue what I was stepping into.

University was a whirlwind of experiences. At first, it was just about getting through my courses, but soon, it became so much more. I made incredible friends, and suddenly, going to campus wasn’t just about studying—it was about life itself. It was my first taste of something different from the routine I had known back home: school, studying, maintaining good grades, and never missing a Sunday service or midweek church meeting.

Back then, I lacked confidence. I struggled to stand on my own. I followed the crowd, shaped myself to fit in, and did what pleased others just to be liked. But university felt different. For the first time, I had friends who liked me for me. I felt included. I belonged. And I cherish those moments.

In my fourth year, I began my practical training and discovered that I actually enjoyed my field—not just in theory, but in practice. I learn best by doing, and suddenly, everything started making sense. But as time passed, I found myself wondering: Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life?

I started feeling stuck—depressed, even. I had no sense of direction while it seemed like everyone else was moving forward with purpose. The weight of loneliness and uncertainty became my daily companion. I didn’t know how to process it because I had never felt that lost before. And then one day, I made a bold decision: I quit my job to seek change.

That decision led me to a self-discovery camp, and it was beautiful. I even attended a film camp—something I had never considered before—simply because I knew I wanted to create something. That experience stirred something in me. I began feeling alive again. I took a leap and started studying Occupational Health and Safety, and slowly, I felt the change within myself. I started feeling proud of myself again. I began to appreciate the pain, the tears, and the prayers of agony that had brought me to this point.

But life wasn’t done testing me.

I got into a car accident. Shortly after, I found myself back in a job I wasn’t excited about. I felt hopeless again—returning to a field I had tried to step away from. But after all the expenses from the accident, I needed the income. So I put on my big girl pants and did it anyway.

And that’s when I saw how faithful God truly is.

He placed me in a lab that wasn’t as demanding as my previous jobs. I found myself working with amazing people in an environment where my input was valued. I had the space to be creative, innovative, and flexible while still studying and figuring out my next steps. What I once saw as a setback turned out to be a blessing in disguise.

Now, I see things differently. I am learning to embrace my profession while still pursuing my other passions. I no longer see my journey as a straight path but as a winding road filled with lessons, redirections, and unexpected blessings.

I am still scared, but I am doing it scared anyway.

Even writing this story feels like stepping into the unknown. There’s uncertainty, but it is not my job to be certain. That’s God's domain. He knows my future. He holds the plans to prosper me, not to harm me—to give me a hope and a future. He is in control, and He loves me. And that is enough.

So here’s to doing it scared. Here’s to embracing the journey. Here’s to stepping out in faith.

So here is Why I Joined World Pulse:

I’m at a stage in my life where I’m ready to embrace change and step outside the box I’ve lived in for so long. I’ve spent too many years stuck in the same patterns, feeling the same way year after year, and I’m done with that. I’m ready to challenge myself, push my boundaries, and take on new opportunities, even if it means facing the fear of rejection. I joined World Pulse because I believe this app can be a space for growth, a place where I can test my limits, learn about myself and others. I want to learn new things, talk to new people, get innovative, start creating, i just want to start and impact people with my God given purpose. Therefore I’m putting myself out there, trusting that God will guide me as I step out in faith, hoping that this community will be a stepping stone to help me break free from stagnation and move toward a fuller life.

Also if you can relate please engage, How do you push through when life feels stagnant and directionless? Also Have you ever had to embrace something you once tried to walk away from? How did your perspective change? I look forward to learning from you😊