I may have messed my opportunities right but everything would be okay.

My situation of things right now.
Hi, everyone, this is my first story on World Pulse.
I just really need to find a way to express myself. This year has been my year because I made my ignore have a major part in my decision-making.
I have always seen myself differently but not in a good way, which affects my view on things. I never actually fit in but I try my best to not be a sleeping tom.
Early this I got myself into some debt and it's pretty much haunting me right now. This has really pushed me away from my dreams and ambitions. Imagine getting threats every day which could defame my image and importantly my families name.
I messed really bad but I will work my way out even if I don't have a probable solution.
I still want this year to be my best year so I would not give up so shouldn't you.