Introducing myself and my journal: EDUCATOR

About Me:
I AM AN ASISAN LADY WITH A 25 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER WHO IS AWESOME. I HAVE BEEN MARRIED FOR 25 YRS. I WAS FORCED TO MARRY MY HUSBAND WHEN I GOT PREGNANT. AT THAT STAGE I BELEIEVE WE TRULY LOVED EACH OTHER. I HAVE A VERY CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PARENTS, THEY ALWAYS SEEM TO SUPPORT MY UNMARRIED SISTER MORE. I AM A CATHOLIC. WHEN I GOT MARRIED MY HUSBAND WAS A HINDI. HE CONVERTED TO CATHOLICISM AFTER ABOUT THREE YEARS OF MARRIAGE. MY IN-LAWS WROTE HIM OFF FOR CHANGING HIS RELIGION BECAUSE HE IS THE ELDEST SON. MY FATHER-IN-LAW NEVER ACCEPTED THIS MARRIAGE UNTIL ALMOST 18 YEARS INTO IT. I NEVER LOST MY RESPECT FOR THEM. I DID HOWEVER NOT ALWAYS FIND IT URGENT TO GO TO SEE THEM. I HAD 6-9 MISCARRIAGES AFTER MY DAUGHTER AFTER TRYING TO ABORT HER. WHEN I HAD MY WOMB REMOVED I ALMOST DIED. I STARTING SLEEPING WITH MY DAUGHTER. IN 2009 I FOUND OUT MY HUSBAND WAS CHEAPING ON ME WITH A MATRIC GIRL (17 YRS). WHEN I CAUGHT HIM HE PROMISED TO STOP. IN 2011 I CAUGHT HIM HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH THIS GIRL AGAIN. HE DENIES HAVING ANY SEXUAL RELATIONSHIPS. THIS YEAR 2014 I CAUGHT HIM AGAIN WITH A FRIENDS PHONE WITH PICTURES OF NAKE GIRLS AND MESSAGES OF LOVE SENT TO HIM AND VICE VERSA. HE ACKNOWLEDGED HAVING AN AFFAIR WITH ONE GIRL WHO HE JUST MET AT MEETINGS. I DONOT WANT TO LOOSE HIM AS I STILL BELIEVE I LOVE HIM AND HE LOVES ME. BUT HOW DO I GO ON. IN 2013 WE RENEWED OUR VOWS FOR OUR 25TH ANNIVERSARY. HE SAYS THE RELATIONSHIP STARTED IN AUGUST. I DONOT BELIEVE HIM.. WE AHVE GREAT HOLIDAYS LOCALLY AND INTERNATIONAL. THIS YEAR I WENT TO THE WORK TO TELL HIS FRIENDS. I THINK HE HATES ME FOR HUMILATING HIM. HE SAYS HE CANNOT TRUST ME. YET I DIDNOT HAVE THE AFFAIRS.

My Passions:
HAVING SOME SHOW ME THEY LOVE ME

My Challenges:
DEALING WITH A CHEATING HUSBAND WHOM I LOVE I THINK

My Vision for the Future:
COMPLETING MY DOCTORAL STUDIES AND MAKING MY MARRIAGE WORK

My Areas of Expertise:
EDUCATION AND ORGANISATION OF FUNCTIONS