Mental Health & physchological torture

Am 30 today,am am a mother of three,got married right after my graduation,was forced to go live with my in-laws due to financial crisis.Thats when everything thing changed,my husband and my in-laws tortured me and I felt like all I deserved was death,I was hopeless. I was forced to endure that abusive environment by my aunt and I was not supposed to speak up,I was mentally and physchologically down ,the abuses were too much and gradually my kids were mistreated and all this was indirectly done to my kids to hurt me.my husband sided with his family to torture me.I have lived in this marriage for 6 years but I need is to be free and embark on my career,speak on behalf of other young women in the same situation. Alot of people are fighting depression and end up committing suicide . We can never tell that someone is fighting depression and physchological torture unless they speak up or end up committing suicide.