My mother is my security key

My mother really more patience, innovative farmer and very hard worker even she had not supported any body to her. I remembered that I hadn’t  recognized my father because when I was 4 years old my father was died and my brother was about 3-4 months. I rembered again that my all six family members grandfather, grand mother, father in law and father’s elder brother, father’s two sisters were died. However my mother concern was only making to security to us (me and brother). My mother did all people dead ceremony ‘Kriya’ by herself. In generally for dead ceremony 13 days need to stay without touching from anybody and for that male need to do that tradtion. Everybody told to my mother please keep for that ‘Kriya’ ‘to my brother but my brother didn’t do that because she was so concern to secutiry situation of my brother. Therefore,she herself to commited to stay ‘Kriya’althought woman hadn’t accepted to keep in ‘Kriya’ but my mother did although society was against to her.

After death of all family members, our house was burnt in the fire. Therefore, all property became destroyed and we became homeless. Finally my one maternal uncle gave us shelter to us.  Therefore, life was so damaging and we became so scarce to this disaster. Relatives and neighbor also made us violence and they always dominate to us. In generally, Nepalise society woman life become so hard if there isn’t husband in the house. It was very difficult to us for hand to mouth one hand in other hand relatives, neighbor also always violating us. Some time relatives bit us in small small things, therefore, sometime my mother also bit them due to over their domination. Sometime people used to say my mother for accusing witch and if someone became sick then they accused to my mother. Therefore, life was so so untolerable and I say to god why did you punish us. Due to this all bad event, I could not go to school regularly up to 8 class. Therefore, I was hardly passed in the exam. I could not go to school due to home more work, school teacher complained about my absence and math teacher always bit me.  When I passed, class eight then my roll number became 20 in class 9. During that time, my math teacher, English teacher and science teacher were chaged. Therfore, old mind set teachers completely changed and new Teachers were come and they did completely new behavior to me. Due to their well behavior, I went to school regulary to take commitment to pass in well number and I did very hardwork upto 2 oclcok night. Therefore, when I passed 9 class and went to 10 class I became third in the position. And all became surprised , during the 10 class school leving exam ,surprisingly I became first in the my class. After passing 10 class I need to go to certitificate level , luckly I got scholarship for Isc forestry , and Swiss Development Coorporation provided me scholarship for ISC. In the ISC forestry, I became first in the among the girl in the my class. Therefore, I became so empowered. Then I came back to my village again and got job in SDC in the forestry sector. Then I did job and passed upto MA sociology. Now I am doing PhD from Nepal in the topic of climate change. Now I made house for me and my mother. I supported to my brother education also. He also completed double Master degree. Therefore, generally I have taken that mother is my inspirational sournces, due to her patience, struggling habit and caring nature. She helped to improve our condition even her husband died in young age about 30,31 years old, she didn’t do second marriage(In Nepalese society woman’s second marriage is as taken taboo)