The Time I Ran Out of the Classroom Crying- And How it Changed My Life Forever

It was 2017, I was in the middle of my accountancy lecure during my Masters. And suddenly I broke down crying, I couldn't hold back my tears nor hide my feelings anymore. I was aware I was in a class full of students. But I just couldn't hold it back anymore. So I just looked at my professor, he understood and nodded. I picked up my things and ran out of class.

It was months of bottling up everything I was experiencing. Pain, negative thoughts, fear, anxiety. That's when I first sought out therapy. I was diagnosed with clinical depression & ocd and put on medication. 2 weeks into taking medication, I realised I felt a little better but I spent most of my time sleeping because of the medicines. I was really feeling better because I was healing internally, it was just an external fix. So that's when, I decided I wanted to set out on the journey of healing my innermost emotional wounds & traumas. And, I was aware that it would be difficult. Because as they say the road to self healing & improvement is the most difficult yet the most rewarding.

I started with learning more about why I was feeling certain things, what was the cause. That's when I discovered the world of Emotional Intelligence. I took up many courses and implemented it all on myself. Every small activity, mindfulness exercise, etc. It helped me gain a better understanding of myself and my emotions while also making me more empathetic and present to the needs & feelings of others.

Learning about the Human Mind and Emotions was so fascinating I was drawn to learn more and apply it all in my day to day life and being. It made me regulate my emotions better and also have deep and meaningful relationships with people around me.

In 2021, I started Edtrainment. My brain baby. It was a platform focused on developing the Emotional Intelligence of employees within workspaces. I also held many workshops and seminars for student learners. It was the most fulfilled I felt in the longest. Especially when a workshop participant would walk up to you and tell you how much it has helped them. Today, I coach women to be the best versions of themselves combining EQ & Purpose Clarity Coaching under my 10X Phoenix Woman Coaching. And I feel life has come in a full circle.

Looking back at 2017, I just feel grateful to God to have given me the strength to turn that pain into what today defines a major part of my life and calling.

So if you're going through something today that feels heavy and like it's never going to go away. Hang on there, be more kind and compassionate to yourself the way you are to people around you. Look around you for the right people who will understand what you're going through and will just sit besides you and listen. Get the professional help that you require because sometimes just talking to a mental health professional can help you feel seen, heard, more grounded and rooted in clarity. And, last but not the least I believe that this pain of yours is going to transform into something so beautiful & powerful that you're going to look back just the way I am, right now and smile.