What Peace Means for me

Peace is a subjective word. Everyone will have their own interpretation of what they think peace is for them. I would emphasis on what peace has been for me. For me, peace has been the days where everything falls into place, where odds are in your favour, where the people you love are there and the heart is all smiles and giggly. Sounds Strange right? heart and giggly? and then it being at peace? Well! yes my experience with peace has been like that. well, with the right people it feel like that as if the magic is happening right there in that very moment. Though at times this peace can turn into chaos with the change in age or time and one such transition happened to me when I Grew Up. When I was child, I was eager to grow and be at par with my siblings for them to take me seriously. I wanted to be relatable and being the youngest child that is something you will not experience quite often. Though the one thing I did not realize is that if I grow up to their age, They will transition into the next phase and those next phases would involve you all being at different places, hearing and virtually seeing but not being with each other. Even when you are with each other occasionally, the priorities would not align as my priority would be hanging out together experiencing together and theirs's would be to take their children and spouses off to a nice place so they can have good weekend together. Then in these moments you would feel that when you were a child you had all of them by yourselves now there are people you have to share them with. There though arrives a paradox Should I Let them enjoy their lives and get a life of my own where the visits will not be that frequent or Should I Let myself assimilate in a family for few years and then build my own? Weird enough , one feels too modern and other too traditional. It's like being in two minds. Then emerges the chaos and disturbs the peace as you have hard time balancing the two. Those are the moments where you just want to be around them , talk to them , be with them , support them and cheer them with the realization that things won't be the same anymore and you have to adjust yourself with the new kind of Peace. Find a little of your own , where you have your own people to celebrate life with , who brings you peace , love and warmth vis a vis keep yourself connected to the people with whom you spend a good amount of life with. Peace is where your hearts will be all smiles and giggly but there would come times when their will be disruption, when there will be need for transition, for new people and for you to come out of cocoon to fly around in a bigger world that would initially feel chaotic but will eventually bring you peace.